Thursday, January 30, 2014

Riches of Haiti

Last night our teens answered more questions about Haiti. The friendliness of the people left a strong impression. Short trips took extra time to stop and greet friends of the driver. Folks wandered over to visit and met each other with smiles. Even though electricity was spotty, each teen wished to go back for the friendliness. 

My wife spoke up. "That's close to how society operated 40 years ago." I remember my folks going back and forth with their friends. Lots of card playing, laughing and sharing life. As a kid, I often wandered onto my neighbor's porch to visit and pump the porch swing. People said "Hi." to one another with smiles. Kids greeted adults. Family visited each other. 

Now we live wary. "How will parents take me talking to their child?" I need to get home to enjoy my stuff. I don't have the time and/or energy to follow up with friends, except on Facebook. Family lives far away. 

I see why our team wants to go back. 

Monday, January 27, 2014

Courage and correctness

This morning I watched the Meet the Press podcast of yesterday's (1/26) show. At the end the producers aired a piece about Billy Jean King. She is traveling to the Winter Olympics as part of the US Presidential delegation as are several other high profile homosexual athletes. Harry Smith conducted a warm interview with Ms King interspersed with bits of her tennis days. 

During the interview she described some of the struggles that fell on her for being "outed" by a former partner. With courage and fire she is anxious to travel to Russia to stand against the mistreatment of homosexuals in that country. I admire Ms. King's courage. I'm sorry that her skills could not carry her past the ambush she endured in the tennis world. I admire her present fire to set wrongs right. 

Unfortunately courage and fire doesn't make a person's morals correct. I understand that morality is now considered a relative pursuit. In that vein Ms. King stands as a fine spokesperson for the power of love and conviction, while those who attacked her seem so much less. What if Ms. King is wrong? The quality if one's opponents doesn't make one right. Taking out a heterosexual Bobby Briggs is no feat. What if Ms. King's sexual attraction to women is morally wrong? 

I know the flow of history is freeing us from all those outdated morals, even as the ideas of slavery and racial superiority fell. Many of those who fought for the rights of women and the races took their energy from the words in the Bible. I don't believe they would be found among those declaring homosexuality permissible today. 

It is not immoral to exist or receive equal treatment as other races or gender. That sort of thinking is a failure. Morality has to do with choice. What will I do in response to feelings or ideas that are out of bounds? Will I flow with the look another woman tosses at me or will I look only to my wife? Will I slip that trinket in my pocket out of sight of security or leave it be? Will I let my thoughts wander from what should be to what could be? That is the moral question to me. 

Now my moral problems are about as big as any you can imagine. I have lied and lusted, stolen and hated, attacked with fists and words. I am no expert on living a virtuous life. I have no right to declare anyone a sinner or a failure from personal experience. I have struggled with feelings that are out of bounds with very uneven results. When I ask a question about the rightness of someone else, I would be a fool to presume any right to do so. I ask about Ms. King's rightness as a fellow struggler to find the right and live it. I just feel society is leaving something precious behind by embracing homosexuality as acceptable and promoting those who have made that choice to make a statement. 

What are we leaving behind? I have an opinion as a fellow immoralist. Purity. 

Friday, January 24, 2014

What's So Funny?

I laugh like my Dad. Why in the world would I copy a laugh? I can see adopting a walk. I understand mimicking a handshake. Why pick up an awkward, and a bit out of control sound?

Laughing just doesn't make sense. Why make the same sound when nerves tickle as when Andre the Giant says, "Give him a break, he's been mostly dead all day" while holding doll like Dread Pirate Roberts/Farmboy Wesley's head so he can see Indigo? I can't decide which produces a larger response. A mystery that doesn't matter to be sure. 

One of my favorite takes on Jesus depicts him with his head thrown back in the grip of a laugh. The Bible paints God laughing at the nations lined up against him. The idea of trying to take down God is as comical as Dread Pirate Roberts out wrestling Andre. (That only happens in the movies by the way.). What else elicits a chuckle from God?  Maybe a son who laughs like his Dad. 

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Song Burst Silliness

I let loose a song burst this morning as the kids were getting ready for school, "the soft and quiet nerfmobile keeps bouncing back for more." That's all I could remember. My wife, who is almost 6 years younger than yours truly was skeptical that such a toy existed. I found one for sale on ebay.

Our brains retain all sorts of dormant snippets of song, smells, sights that float to the surface for no apparent reason. Sometimes a song from the 60's or early 70's will flash me into a scene from then. No, I  was not part of the drug culture. Its a feature of mid age and older than allows us older folks to pass on what we have experienced to the younger generations.

That doesn't seem as relevant today.  Hundreds of years ago a son took up his father's trade and a daughter learned her mother's skills. Now technology changes by the second. New jobs are born and new industries push out old ones. Such staples of my childhood,  IBM, GM, Sears and Roebuck have lived through drastic change and restructuring. New names,  Apple, Google, Facebook, Intel and Cisco now command center stage. What seems to be important to the next generation was invented after our time.

Yet when past generations passed on their skills, they also passed on morals. We may not have the skills kids need. Hopefully we have found the morals.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Growing Stronger

"Get yourself under the spout where the grace comes out." - Keith Drury's Dad.  Prayer, fasting, communion, meditating on God's word, doing good, all these are spouts where the grace comes out. Until we have begun a relationship with God through Jesus these activities don't let much in. After connecting with God through Christ the valve is opened.

Of course God turns the valve. His Spirit moves in and causes us to grow. We get in the flow. He does the rest.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

First Match

“So, Benjamin, where were you last night?” My fellow gladiators asked together.

“Sporting.”

“So you are no longer a boy?” Tertulus laughed.

“And she is no longer a girl. I had her moaning by the end.”

“Come to breakfast now. Master Silvus will not count hoaring as an excuse for missing training.” Tertulus swept me out the door. I didn’t care. I coursed with the strength of manhood. After chomping through breakfast, Master teamed me with Tertulus for advanced broadsword work. “So was I right about the slave-girl?”

“Not at first. She fought me, but after a few go rounds, she settled before my manhood.”

“I told you I had seen her eyeing you up, so will you go back for more?”

“I, I don’t know.”

“I see.” I fought Tertulus to a standstill for 10 sessions that morning. “I have nothing more to teach you. I will report that to Master Silvus at midday meal.” As I sat for lunch the activities of the night and morning climbed on my back. I almost fell asleep in my plate. I certainly planned to sleep instead of chasing once I reached my bunk that night. Master Silvus had other plans.

“Master Benjamin, come here. Tertulus tells me that you are a young magician of the broadsword. Your sparring is done for the day. Tonight you will test your growing skill in the ring. Rest yourself this afternoon to be prepared for the contest tonight.”

“Yes, Master.”

“And Benjamin . . .”

“Yes?”

“No sporting with the slave-girls until you have won.”

After a bath and rub down, I headed back to my room to wait. A Roman slave girl met me at the door with a sly smile. “Drucilla, I will see you later, after the fight.”

“You will not ‘fight’ tonight, Benjamin. A fight allows both to come out alive. Call them ‘contests’ or ‘spectacles.’ If you think of tonight as only a fight, you could be carried home in a bag.”
“Where did you come from, Emander?”

“I heard my Father give the order to put you in the ring tonight, so I sought you out.”

“What other cheery words do you have for me?” I asked trying to appear unconcerned, but hungry for any advice.

“You will have the advantage tonight with the crowd. They shout wildly for fellow countrymen. Father is starting you in the early rounds to break you in. The best and toughest matches are saved for the end of the evening, so the vendors may sell more of their stock to the spectators. The shouting of the crowd can lift you too high, so keep your emotions under control, but take your strength from their cheers.”

“What of the other gladiator? Who am I likely to fight? I mean best.”

“These rounds are usually the prowling grounds of old and half broken gladiators or children with lots of strength and little skill. There are also a very few highly trained up and comers like yourself. You understand, Benjamin, that tonight you will only leave the ring if you have killed or been killed?”

“I, yes, I u-understand.”

“Good. You should fear. Any of the opponents I just named could and would kill you if you hesitate too long. Practice on the old gladiators to learn their tricks. Finish off the children without revealing your skill. Take down the up and coming as quickly as you learn how.”

I ate alone. At least I moved my food about alone. My stomach was more nervous than my head and refused food. Master Silvus took me himself. We arrived at the back of the arena in time to send me into the second round of battles. I wore my sword resting easily on my hip and my helmet tight on my head. My feet were totally covered with heavy boots, but the rest of me was lightly clad for maximum speed.

My foe and I stared down each other on the way through the arch and into the ring. His name was Jerome and he looked older than my father. He was covered with scars and looked like he had his left eye sown back crooked. He stood as tall as I, but I had 20 pounds on him. “Watch this one.” Silvus whispered.

We met in the center. Our names were announced to the crowd. Emander was right. As my name echoed around the stone seats, a cheer arose that almost took me off my feet. “Swish” “Clang!” Jerome took advantage of my greenness and almost took my head off. He dropped back into a crippled looking stance and staggered back a couple of steps. I threw a tentative blow at his mid-section. He weakly blocked it. Must be he put all he had into the first swing, hoping to catch me unawares. I throw a more forceful swing at his shoulder. He blocked and ducked, almost falling into a heap. I don’t know why Silvus was worried about this one. I remembered Emander’s advice about sparring with old gladiators to learn their tricks. I exchanged half-hearted blows with Jerome, learning little. The crowd started jeering. They wanted action. I couldn’t let them down. I took a huge roundhouse swing, and he was gone! Off balance, I felt him slice across my back and set it on fire. I fell, tucked and rolled upright, but Jerome was nowhere to be “Whack!” He caught me right at the base of the helmet. I went down like a stone and lay still. I hoped the actor in him would have to play up his big victory over me. He kicked me. I didn’t resist. His next kick lifted me over onto my back. I groaned, but didn’t open my eyes. I heard the crowd gasp and felt the shadow of his sword fall on my face. Now. My sword leapt for his throat and opened it wide. I rolled after the sword stroke and I came up in a defensive crouch. Jerome made one last swing as the life blood left his head. The crowd roared in amazement. Maybe I had learned something from old Jerome after all.

“So, you will have to learn quicker next time. Did I not tell you to watch him?” Silvus chided half serious and half humorous. “Well-done only a few bruises from your first fight. You have more seasoning to do, but you are well on your way to be a gladiator. Off with you before the cheering crowds swell your chest too large.” I turned to leave. “And here . . .” he threw a purse of coins at me. “Don’t forget your take.”

As soon as I passed under the grandstand, I opened the purse. Inside lay 30 silver denarii! It would take a month worth of work to come close to this kind of money. I couldn’t believe it. I counted again. When I was at about 5, Tertullus tapped me on the shoulder. “So, going to stand there and count all night or can we do some spending?”

“Tertullus! Did you see me! That old lion almost got me, until I fooled him with his own trick.”

“That’s why I’m here. Since I taught you, Silvus wanted me to review the match with you. I think we should do that with some food. Are you hungry?”

“Now that you remind me of my stomach, let’s eat!” Tertullus took me to one of his favorite eateries. I paid of course.

“Pretty proud of yourself, are you Benjamin?”

“Yes, he didn’t even get a scratch on me.”

“I observed about 7 different times that he could have put you in the grave.”

“Well, I know I made a few mistakes, but . . .”

“What do you think were your two biggest mistakes?”

“I was fooled by his crippled old gladiator drama.”

“That was almost your worst mistake. What do you suppose was the worst mistake I saw?”

“When he got around behind me?”

“No. Benjamin, you focused hard and long on splitting that stone in two. When you tore into that rock with all your anger and frustration, you accomplished the impossible. I didn’t see any of that focus or energy tonight. Benjamin, if ‘that old lion,’ as you called him had realized that Silvus has been training you, he would have taken you apart in the first 10 seconds.”

“No, no he wouldn’t.”

“You can think what you like, but I watch all the swordsman fight, and this gladiator has taken down more skilled men that you. Now don’t turn so pale. You are alive and eating a huge steak with me and he isn’t. What do you think you did right tonight?”

“Well, when I faked being knocked out. That was a turn I used to my advantage.”

“You almost overdid it. How did you know it would be safe to lay there that long?”

“Since he was such a great actor when playing the cripple, I figured he couldn’t resist playing up my death scene.”

“That was a lucky read, or very smart. Now let’s talk about your technique.” For the next hour Tertullus and I relived the battle blow by blow. I learned more in that hour than I had in the last month and a half sparring. “Are you satisfied that we went over everything?”

“You are a great teacher.”

“Listen to me, Benjamin. This is my last piece of advice. I don’t get friendly with other gladiators like Emander does. I watch out for me first. I went through all this with you, because Silvus wanted me to. It doesn’t mean I am your teacher or friend, it just means I was ordered to.”

“I, I understand.”

“Anytime you need someone to introduce you to all that your money can buy here in the city, I will be glad to help you spend it.” I found out that was true.

What do you do when you are bored?

As a kid I don't remember getting bored. Trees beckoned me to climb. Basketballs cried out to be dribbled in the NBA finals of my mind. Comic books and youth novels waited with adventure. I even watched TV.

At 13 I started a relationship with God through Jesus the Christ. Before I had known about God. At 13 he and I became friends. I started reading the Bible, the King James authorized version of the Bible and God made it live. I would read something on the bus to school and that passage would explain a part of my day, crazy exciting! Sermons actually seemed like God speaking to me. All the churchy stuff I had sat through as a kid, now pushed me to the edge of my seat.

What do I do now when I grow bored? Browse Facebook, instead of talk with God. What do I do now when my mind finds an open moment? Pull up a youtube video, instead of opening my Bible. Was all that excitement just for my teenage years? Even as I ask I know the answer, "No."

What do you do when you are bored?